this sucks

Sad to say...
I cannot meet the deadline for settling my school fees...
It's this Friday (3rd Oct)...
Which also translates to me not being able to continue 2nd Semester...

I'm so sad...

I've tried looking for quick jobs, that didn't work out.
Savings? None.
Loans? Can't. I don't want to take loans, plus, I don't think I can. Having to look for guarantors and all.

I'm so sad...

I won't get to see my classmates anymore...
Temporary? Permanent?
I don't know...

If any lecturer happens to read this, I have this to say:

I SWEAR I'M INTERESTED IN SCHOOL!!!
I HAD SOME ISSUES AND IT'S HARD TO COPE!!!
I KNOW IT'S NOT ENOUGH BUT I'M TRYING MY BEST!!!
AND JUST BECAUSE I DON'T COME BACK TO SCHOOL(period.) DOESN'T MEAN I'M A HOPELESS MUTHAFUCKER WITH NO DREAMS AND AMBITIONS!!!
I WANNA BE SOMEBODY!!!

I wish I could, continue school that is, but I swear, I don't know what to do.

To all my new friends from school:

It's been nice knowing you
:)

Selamat Hari Raya