I Miss You

I know I've blogged about how much I miss the various people in my life.
But never, or at least very rarely, have I ever mentioned their names here.

I think, now, these people have moved on far enough for me to have the courage to write their names down. Because I know things will never be the same again.
These people were a significant part of my life,
and I care for them so much.

Here's to you.


I MISS SAW
You were like the girlfriend I never had. I love you alot, and my words are just not good enough to express how I feel.
I miss you so much.
Things never really kicked off for us.
But if ever I had the chance, or the courage to have done something about it, I certainly would have. I would've taken every opportunity to show you how much I care for you.
You're far away now. and you're busy with your new life.
I hope you do well in school, and love life.
I miss your hugs and kisses.
And your sometimes narcissistic view on life and all the people in it.
I think of you when I listen to Jason Mraz's Bella Luna.
and I always lose my mood when I start thinking of you, because all I can think about would be being with you.
I just love you.
not enough I guess.
No, I dont miss you alot, I miss you the most right now.





I MISS NADIA
You're a very special girl.
You're infinitely beautiful,
You're so smart, you make me look pathetic.
I care for you as much as any other,
and I dare say I love you if you permit me.
The short amount of time that we spent being close to each other wasn't really how I would've wanted it to be. It was amazing being with you, but I would've wanted more.
You were everything I ever wanted.
Unfortunately, I never had the balls to really tell you how I felt.
Remember there was this one time, I wrote some poems and posted it here?
of how Romance was like a diamond fish, that swam away to another shore?
that was about you.
In fact most of the other poems were about you.
You gave me life, and motivation. You got my brain working again.
I miss your hugs alot also.
I miss how close we were.
If I had the courage before, I would've asked you out on a PROPER date.
I loved spending time with you.
I wanted to spend EVERYDAY with you.
How I wish you didnt swim away.



I MISS KAS
I know I still see you and speak to you.
But you dissappoint me so much I feel so unmotivated to continue.
yet,
I still care for you so much.
I don't know why, but I do.
I know the age difference is ridiculous.
and I knew if anything were to happen, it would've never lasted.
But I was willing to give it my all. I would've made it the best relationship you ever had if it happened.
Unfortunately, it didnt.
You made some really lousy choices and I've been feeling shitty about it ever since.
I try, I swear I try, to talk to you and be normal around you.
But my heart sinks every time I see you looking at me, every time you say my name, every time you sit next to me.
There was this time, you wanted me to accompany you to Siraj's house. At first I didn't want to, but you persuaded me to go. Then you replied "Yaaayyy, I love youuuu"
I still have that SMS.
and the time you were angry at me for not talking to you.
I still have that SMS.
I still care for you alot Kas, and I will always be there for you, and stand up for you.
But I'm sorry if I've neglected you, I just feel like breaking down sometimes.




I MISS IFFAH
I miss you because you're the only person to have ever officially stepped into my life. You're the only one to have met my parents. You're the only one I have ever called a Girlfriend.
I can't say you're the best GF, because you're the ONLY GF.
but you were wonderful, most times. haha.
you're definitely smart, and confident, and hard-headed.
You awaken in me, passion.
Not just in love, but in anything I do. I learnt to be strong, matured, and over-confident. haha.

but I have to tell you this.
and you know I'm always right.

You have to get it into your head that people will care for you.
You didnt have to make me love you, I already did.
So saying and doing things, in an effort to make me love you was pointless.
Just be yourself and the love will come.

And I still love you.
but that doesnt mean that I die die HAVE to get back with you.
How I phrase the sentence is important.
I still love you.
not,
I am still IN love with you.
I will always be there when you need me,
and you will be my best friend forever.
If we ever get back into a relationship, good lah.
but if it doesnt, I don't care.
Because you're always there, and we will always, somehow, still be great friends.
Cruising Together, that's the song that reminds me of you.




I MISS WEEN
I know we've moved on sooooo farrr, we've forgotten each other.
But this is just to let you know, that you were a huge part of my life when we were 'dating'.
There was this one time, I was texting you, and suddenly you replied
that you have a boyfriend, and that you were sorry if we couldnt communicate as often.
I swear to you, I dropped my phone and started tearing.
I didn't cry. I just felt really sad.
And, as usual, I didn't reply you after that lah.
But you're happy now, and it doesn't matter. I've moved on anyway.
I still think of you though every time All About You by McFly is on.



I MISS FIZA CHERUBICA
Now this is old school.
I knew you back when I was in Lasalle. or before that maybe.
That's like 7/8 years ago?
I really really really really liked you.
and I never had the courage to tell you how I felt.
I would've asked you out if I was more of a man before.
Now, we dont talk as often, and I am too damn ashamed to ask you out.
You've moved up in the world, and have done so much for yourself.
I on the other hand, am STILL a punk.
But I'll always remember you.




That's all .
I don't think I've missed out anybody.

So there's a lesson in all this.
Make a move, before she moves on.

I'll never get that. haiz.


ooh...

I MISS ATIE
I do miss you alot. Really. You're such a nice girl.
I'll write more about you soon.